On March 26, 2020 God the Father told me to make up in my mind that I will do whatever he tells me. He said to change THE WAY that I teach. He told me to teach with authority. I did not understand what he meant by that. It is now April 29, 2020 and it is clear to me now. On April 27, 2020 I was told to record the teaching  Ministering To The Lord Series 1 of 12 and I did that. The night of April 28, 2020 I had a dream, to cut down on sometime I will share the interpretation with you. I was with destruction (destroy) and she looked way worst then I had seen her in other dreams that I had with her and she was serving someone who is boastful. Boastful is defined as showing excessive pride and self-satisfaction in one's achievements, possessions, or abilities. After waking up from the dream, I didn't quit understand everything but at the end of the dream I know that I escorted destruction (destroy) out of my life and I walked across the street from where she was.

Around 4:00 am on April, 29, 2020 after I was done editing a teaching video, The Holy Spirit corrected me on two things that I did when recording teaching 1 of 12 of the Ministering to the Lord Series, and I had to repent. Firstly, I did a lot of justifying in that teaching, which caused my motives to be wrong. Secondly, He told me that I was boastful (excessive pride). I apologized to God, and I also apologize to you. Justification is defined as the action of showing something to be right or reasonable. At around 1:00 pm om April 29, 2020, I went in the kitchen after attempting to walk my dogs  (the rain stopped us). Then I went to make something  to eat, and my plan was to read my bible while eating. However, I was escorted by an angel of God (walking backwards) from the kitchen to the steps, and then I was told to walk up. I went to my room and then touched my bible and heard Mark 12 in my spirit. I read Mark 12 and when I got to verse 14 and I knew that was what the Holy Spirit wanted me to focus on. BTW, when the Holy Spirit tells me to read something (a specific chapter/verse) I write the date next to the chapter or verse. Next to Mark 12:14, I had a date written down of 3/13/2019, which let's me know that the Holy Spirit was trying to make me aware of this from since then.

"They came to him and said, “Teacher, we know that you are a man of integrity. You aren’t swayed by others, because you pay no attention to who they are; but you teach the way of God in accordance with the truth. Is it right to pay the imperial tax to Caesar or not?"-Mark 12:14

I realized I had a stronghold and it was justifying and that I did not only justify myself to those who I never have to justify myself to, in ministry but also in my everyday life. I lived my life showing or proving to be right or reasonable. From growing up as an appeasement pleaser to working in America, Corporate America as an African American woman. It as almost been required that I prove that I have a right to work where I worked, especially being 1-5 of 200+ African Americans in a company and 2 of 5 in a mid-level and management role. I have been told by a  white-peer that my skin complexion made the cut because if I were any darker, I  I wouldn't be acceptable or beautiful? I've been verbally abused while working in Silicon Valley, and instead of standing up to this bully, I appeased by being the first one in the office, and the last one to leave, working weekends, which btw, is normal in tech. When I would have non-African American managers, there was always an extra mile that my African American peers and I had to take to prove our-self worthy of being competent to do the job, despite having the degrees and the experience. I must admit at my last job, I told my peers and my manager that I was not hired to do this job as a diversity statics but because of my experience and knowledge. Within the first two months, the saw that I was probably overly qualified for the job, and thus agreed with my statement. I had gotten tired of being dominated at home, dominated because of my race, etc.

Then when God I started to walk in God's plan and purpose for my life, my family and friends required an explanation, although it was never spoken directly.